From the beginning, when we were kids, we learned to form friendships. We never really knew about loyalty and trustworthiness. As we mature, we learn, through our own experiences, to be a true FRIEND. Some, I might add, never really learn how to recognize their true friends. I've had horrible experiences wherein my loyalty was doubted and my friendship taken for granted...

   I believe that being a true friend means honesty and being there for that person no matter what, even if they are going through hard times. I am now 32 and in my years, I have had 2 persons whom i considered friends, turn their backs on me. Don't get me wrong, my life DOES go on, cause' I'm strong-that's a given. But the hurt that accompanies being let down by someone is immense and hurtful. We can all have our relationships and be in love, but our friends are the ones who will listen and go that extra mile, just when u think all of your resources are gone. I guess my nature is fiercely loyal and there are soo many who just can't seem to be that way. What do we do when we no longer have trust? What do we do when we no longer let anyone get inside their world on a personal level? It can be for love relationships or just platonic relationships...What we do is KEEP our heads up and continue to move on, push forward and know that it was an HONOR for them...for persons such as I, to have been friends. Our kind, leaves a touch of glitter

         on their hearts....words can't explain the deep anger, or shall i say, unrest...yah that's a better word, that it causes deep inside  when you feel you have been judged wrongly, or simply taken advantage of. If any of those two persons ever come upon this blog, you know who u are, and I must say, It's amazing how some people take advantage of certain situations and use it to their own advantage and totally be dis-loyal...but to me, I had nothing to gain..but I had something to lose..and that was a friend. So either way, would it have mattered? had I made a different choice back then, would you turn your back on me anyway? I think so. But who wins? I win. I win, because through it all, I was the truthful one and the one who refused to betray you. Tell me, where, in this lifetime will you find that?